Cathy | home
Cathy's view point Winter is almost over and today is Sunday, Edgar just left to go to the church. I am lying in my bed, thinking of Heathcliff and Wuthering Heights. I know my sickness is getting worse, I feel like I am moribund. I miss Heathcliff so much. I just want to see him before I leave this earth. Looking out the open window, I wonder if Heathcliff will suffer when I leave. Will he remember me after I go? As I was in deep thought about my penchant for Wuthering Heights and Heathcliff, Nelly interrupted and told me that I have a letter from Heathcliff. I was so excited knowing that he wanted to see me, and that he's outside the garden waiting for my response. I nearly fainted just knowing the news when Nelly read me the letter. I stared at the door waiting for Heathcliff to come in. I fell in his arms when he burst through the door. I feel lachrymose and I couldn't help kissing him. He hugs and smoothers me with thousands of soft kisses. Staring at his eyes is like looking at paradise for me, the moment I saw him is when I know that if we were together and we would be happy even when we are hoary. The thought of me leaving is like thousand of needles stabbing my heart. I said to him, "You and Edgar have broken my heart, Heathcliff! And you both came to bewail the deed to me, as if you were the people to be pitied! I shall not pity you. You have killed me. How many years do you mean to live after I am gone? Will you forget me? Will you be happy when I am in the earth? Will not love me any more and marry another beautiful woman and have children with her??Heathcliff said to me, "Forgetting you is like forgetting my existence and I'll be suffering while you would be at peace. I didn't killed you Catherine, you killed you!" I couldn't help this intensity, my heart is failing, and I apologize to tell him that he would never do anything to harm me. He turn around to the fireplace. I feel really bad that I blamed him. I just wanted Heathcliff to be with me and be free running in the moors again. I was holding the arm of the chair so that I could get up and be near Heathcliff and.... I am feeling so dizzy...(faints) Heathcliff don't leave me......?
Heathcliff caught me and he said that it's me who killed myself, because I left him and chose Edgar. I feel even worse, I sobbed " leave me alone, leave me alone.?I know I did something wrong so now I'm dying for the mistake. You left me too! I forgive you. Please forgive me!" I can't stop crying, I feel like I am going to lose everything. I feel very stupid for choosing Edgar, I have made a horrible mistake. How could I leave Heathcliff? He was my soul mate, the one I was suppose to be with (sobbing). Suddenly, Nelly informed me that Edgar is coming. I ask Heathcliff not to go because if he does I'll lose everything. Heathcliff can't go, I am going to die soon, what if I don't see him ever again? He finally agree to stay with me. I am holding his arm and I feeling a sense of security. Oh my god Edgar's going to come and he's going to make Heathcliff leave me.......What's happening? I feel so dizzy...(faints)
(awake) Huh? Where's Heathcliff? I am so tired... (moans and sighs)
At around twelve at night, I gave birth to my baby. After giving birth, I am so tired from the languor. I feel so tired that I could just go to sleep and never wake up (falls asleep). Suddenly, I'm in a place that I have never been before. There are a lot of angels and I didn't know anyone. I started to cry and I wanted to be home. The angels was mad at me so they flung me out into the middle of the heath on the top of Wuthering Heights. This was just like my dream I had earlier. Now that I am back home I'm filled with joy. I couldn't get in the house, I could see my room from the outside. I want to go in and see Heathcliff. Maybe I'll stay here and wait for Heathcliff to come so we'll be together again and we will be happy....
I'll wait for you, Heathcliff...
~ This is Catherine telling the story from Chapter 14-15 when she was dying. I use a lot of the information from the book to make this up. I feel this ending is sort of sad... don't you think?
